IVF is like Charlie Sheen

We had the first of three ultrasounds to follow the development of Mo's follicles.

Doesn't that look fun?

They are doing well and mo is down to one less injection per day. That is good news. The folistim burns. The little things are doing well, apparently she is doing about as well as she did last time, which makes the nurses happy, but send a quiver of fear down our spines.

You know, because last time it didn't work.

We're not freaking out, but you know, not exactly what we want to hear. We want to hear "holy crap this is a billion times better than last time!" but since everything went so well last time (except the end part) that expectation is just unreasonable.

It's a funny thing. Having gone through a failed IVF (which was rough), it kinda takes the tension out of the whole thing. It still sucks, I want it to work, and I don't want to do it again. But, I can talk and think about it in a more realistic, factual way. We do this, then this happens, then we wait and see. It will either work, or it won't. If it works, awesome. If it doesn't, we go to the next step. It has become somewhat procedural.

Not unemotional, just procedural. Familiar.

So it's weird talking to people about it because I say how things are likely to fall into place and what we are expecting on a bit of an autopilot and they usually respond with something about not giving up hope. Which is weird to me because that never crossed my mind. I'm not sure if it is my tone or just people saying nice things for lack of a better thing to say.

Just another reminder that IVF is very, very, very different from the way people normally make babies. It's like charlie sheen...you can't process it with normal brain.

IVF, it's kinda like Charlie Sheen